Well, today's friday and it sucked really really awfully. CAN'T SEE YOU . YOU TAKE SO LONG TO REPLY.
IM LOSING MYSELF AND YOU.
and I hate it.
You always leave me alone, ALL ALONE.
I don't know but I guess I have been flirting with myself lately =/
Today.. In Hillgrove Secondary School, Class 4e4, level 3, in a small and dark corner of the classroom ( not exactly dark but yeh) is Valerie. Emo-ing.
She had been thinking of so many things for the past 2 weeks.
She's thinking whether if she could really trust the people around her, especially the one she really loves, but doesn't seem to know it at all.
Yeh... this is the really sad thing for her thing week.
And Valerie had a bad headache today, studied like a mad woman today for F&N.
She had no one to confide to, and no one to share her things with, therefore she has decided to post it up here.
All I need is YOU.
yes you.
You know who you are.
You just don't have the time . I think .
I think I've just found myself a new game, a new hobby.
All you have to do is to germinate your butt onto somewhere comfy or DARK/washroom/bathetub, anywhere and then daydream about him (someone you really miss) and start collecting dust and ROT.
yeh .
give it a shot.
Back to the school topic, well... had choir today. had no instructors, did sectionals. was really lousy, laughed at so many thins today, from sanitry pads to J's panties and bra, you name it you have it ! yeh . with hana and friends or course . who else =)
yeh and during choir practice, Corlissa had her fringe trimmed by Zhiyi who claims herself to be Zhi Gan, David Gan's daughter xD
yeh .. you should see the ways she cut people's hair.
WOW
haha. yeh and corlissa looked like a korean ! really ! Isn't that cool ?
haha. and had our measurements taken today, well its needed for our SYF =\
and I never stop thinking about you .. yes you, you know who you are.
Made me so sad.
sigh .. stupid me . doing all these for him but he doesn't even know it at all .
WELL, love is blind and I'm blinded by love . the love for him
yes .
well... I really hate it seriously, having to wait for him so long, yearning to be with you everyday and hoping that you'll be free sometime/someday/NOW.
But never were you . disappointed.
I attempted to ignore you, but my heart didn't seem to understand my intentions.
Well.. and of course, losing sleep just to daydream of you. But YOU.. all you do is tell me you're tired, busy, had homework, tuition.
yeh ...
suan le . immune le .
sigh ... will things change for the better ?
Do you know how hard I find it just to tell myself to stop thinking of you and to concentrate. It seems impossible and it really is .
but is it worth it ? for me to do all this ? yes ? maybe ..
I don't know . yes it is .
It's because I love you too much. probably.
sigh ... this is killing me . You are killing me . ok .
stop doing this to me .
Let me be by you .
wo ai ni
uoy rof gnitiaw eb lliw I//;
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