Valerie's Property

2009-05-22T20:25:00.000-07:00

OK, I totally done with this blog.
GOODBYE BLOG.
relink !
www.sing-love-peace-joy.blogspot.com

2009-05-21T09:38:00.000-07:00

Today is Kor's birthday =D
haha, well, went to Sakura to celebrate =)
awesome dinner :D

had fun and yeh a lot of scrumptious food.

so Happy Birthday kor ^^

Back to school chapters,
yeh, today we had this so called IMPORTANT briefing (last minute) on GCE 'O' level MT something something lah ( so long ) until the mic died on the principal,
well I was of course glad that such the silly mic had a glitch, but on the second thought of it,
I kinda wished that it shouldn't have ran outta battery at that time because we were suppose to be having POA classes.

YAH, no life and completely, UGH.
Haix,
yeh and because of that dumb mic that FAILED us, LOL
we asked to return to hell, no I meant the classroom to resume NORMAL lessons.
So I of course reluctantly unrooted my butt off that UNCOMFORTABLE chair and dragged me, myself and my bag back to 4E4 lor,
then got back my Freaking LOUSY papers.

so anyway, I don't know lah.
haha, Jie will be coming over to my house for a swim and probably going for a jog at BBNP with me :D
YAY YAY.

and Imsuper looking forward till my birthday ? ^^

YAH, but today's great day despite getting back some disappointing results,
yeh, so after school went for my long awaited chicken rice, then wanted peace so I entered the library's entrance, HAHA, actually it isn't THAT peaceful.
there'll bound to giggles and chuckling wherever I go :D

Oh oh and Saturday, I'll be heading to JP2 to get socks ?
yay yay, socks socks ^^

ok, don't side-track.

hmm, then went to slack and waited for ma to fetch me :D
because I find that some of the bus captains are reckless motorists,
risking my precious life to take public transport.

Hello you are driving a BUS not a FERRARI.
walao.
and just to rant, sometimes even though you've press the freaking bell, the damn driver doesn't stop until till you stand up, PUNCH the EFFING bell for several times and give that IDIOT infront a stern look, then he'll realise that there are actually passengers alighting.
I don't understand ?

and they drive like as if they were the only vehicle on that road. walao?
so inconsiderate.

kay anyway, I gotta sleep not. having a damn headache.
haha.

yah, finally,
Oh I think M_ _ _ _ _ _ _ is still as good-looking as ever (;
cute I should say (;

Kay, ciao people.

2009-05-19T06:30:00.000-07:00

HI there *waves*

Aaah, hmm 19th May 2009
Marks the end of Mid-years !!
Yay Yay.

Well, today's ok.
Papers were ok.
I'm ok.
Tuition was ok.
Ok's ok.

aiya.

OKAY.

went for my fabulous jogging expedition and guess what,
BBNP was so empty, yay
and I got a lot of space to jog wherever I want.

But I wasn't able to make myself train harder :/
Mid-years drained me
Totally.

ho hmm, anyway, just to rant.
What's with all the staring, HUH,
I don't know,
maybe I need a fork or something with me
SO I CAN POKE YOUR EYEBALLS
RAWR.

Zzz.

Lol, but I love jooging in BBNP :D
because I get to see little squirrels
and birdies :D

so cute :D
I hate the F mosquitoes :D
I HATE THEM :D

yeh so anyway, planned to get something special for myself,
guess I'm probably gonna get myself a pair of running shoes because the current one is ROTTING.
Mizuno ?
Nike ?
New Balance ?

Any idea ?
Recommendations ?

also having plans of being a part-time vegetarian
But I don't know when will the plan take effect xD

yah, aiya so random
yah, aiya, so not looking forward to tomorrow
gettings my lousy results and all the shitty comments

Zzz

Shit mode

LOL

but but but,
still got to Mian dui xian shi.

yah lor,
Life's a bitch.

Anyway, JUNE
YAY YAY YAY.
first week = held captive by school
second week = study + relax + play a little
third week = work
fourth week = hard

then back to hellgrove
YAH
I bet there will be alot of catching up for that fabulous F&N coursework
Sickly.

OMG, wasted my life on F&N
Tragic.
Aiyah, pull it through this year and I'm gonna say goodbye to this bitchy subject
OMG.

POA, wasted my youth xD
aiya, seriously,
it's killing my brain luhh.

don't know luhh.
I hate chem too.
Chemical analysis ?
Mole concepts ?
Acids, Bases, Salts ?

Waste time.

Math is even worse,
OMG the teacher, OMG
I have no comments,
OMG, no comments.

Kay lah bye.

2009-05-18T05:15:00.000-07:00

Rain drops falling on my head ~
No No,
RAIN DROPS POURING OVER ME

walao, a heavy downpour today,
Gosh,
my shoes are soaked
THANKS RAIN ( tone dripping with sarcasm )
you drenched my socks too
Aaah

lalala, OH
and thanks for the rain drop that plunge from above and into my eyeballs
THANKS (sarcastically)
my poor eyeball
acid rain
HAHA NO LAH ,

but yeh, it fell into my eye
OW
*rubs*

shiity f&n paper tomorrow
Oh my God,
someone motivate me please
anyway, because I finally completed memorising all the stupid vitamins and minerals AND
yeh supplmented my puny but cute brain xD
YES YES CUTE
hmm, I fed her with KNOWLEDGE
aiseh :D

dumb lah, im still left with like 6 more chapters to go ?
Oh my God,
someone motivate me please.

AHH well,
Hmm, missed my jog-alone trip today :/
well, I was sleeping like a pig,
second, it RAINED
so yeh...

I was stuck at home
didn't even go to the pool :/
aww.

but YAY YAY YAY
Mid-years ending TOMORROW.
Yay-ness :D

I gained weight lah,
shit man
I don't know
I think so
:?

hmm, anyway physics paper was OK today
not to an extent where it's UN-doable
but NOT as easy as I think it would be :/
dumb.

POA, HAA
1hr paper and I spent 40 minutes........
SLEEPING
HAA.

Okay,
POA knows me,
but
I don't know who's POA
OR what is it :/

aiyah,
the paper spelled FAIL on it .
:(

cool luhh,
like 80% of those taking POA were napping during the examination
GAH

CONFIRM is MR PING PONG BALL set de :
who else besides Ms Z and HIM
YEH YOU KNOW.

ZzZzZzZz
waah, but I think 5 minutes for POA paper 1 enough le :)

aiyah, I promise myself to work hard but my stupid brain doesn't seem to be on my side and this dumb laptop is a F distracting object.
So is the piano.
ARGH.

Oh my God,
someone save me .

I want to go CJC
Oh my God,
someone help me.

Nevermind,
I WILL HELP MYSELF

GAH

dumb brain dumb brain
kay lah bye.
Mid-years WILL END TOMORROW
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
I'm ready to crush my report slip (;

2009-05-15T10:17:00.000-07:00

SO I'm wide awake now.
Thinking of you because I can't sleep. LOL

But really.
I am thinking and THINKING and STILL THINKING
of you.

I'm kinda starting to like physics now :D
and HATE MATH.

heh.
Boiled balls.

lalala.

It's has been raining these few days = more puddles = YAY ^.^
MUAHAHAHA.

O levels is nearing, yay(s) to that :D
Hm, because I can't wait to talk to you again :D
I know I know :D
OVER-EXCITED :D

Anyway, just wanta rant on some things,
Okay, here I go
I don't understand what is the F problem with guys who have to shake their feet/leg
1. it is unsightly
2. i find it rude and DIGUSTING
3. F irritating
4. and many more

So in the examination hall, I find that it is highly irritable when someone start thumping his/her bloody feets on the ground. Like continuously, and then is very distracting, especially when everything starts to mini-earthquake around me.
WALAO and what's worst - HIGH HEELS.
YES, HEELS MUST be banned in the examination hall.

those who wear heels should be fined/ jailed!/executed (no lah)/ striped naked (ew, I mean)/ should face the consequences like washing the school's toilet. YAH
walao, If I ever had the chance, I would kick their arse, pluck out their heels, stuff it down their throat, POKE THEIR EYEBALLS and jump on them,
Oh and probably squeeze their neh neh ( walao, I will never do that )
someone corrupted my mind with all these :O

I don't know lah, and adding on to all these unfortunate events, the school hall is built using CHEAP materials, I don't know but I always have a feeling that someday, there will be big big holes in tha hall and like students will fall into these holes and drop right down into the canteen.
WOW?
No, I mean omg ?
it like the wooden tile are so thin that anyone fatter than OK HEAVIER than like 50 kg might just damage it, causing cracks
or 60kg and above might cause it to split open
61 kg and above will just fall right through, yah
scary right?
School is going to collapse. SOONER or LATER
in my dreams

HAA.

Oh and what's with all the good luck and stuff,
Sorry but I don't need luck,
I have brains.
That's all I need.
Haa.
Nahz, joking.
Humble, humble.

Aaah,
anyway I should be tucked on my bed but apparently I am not.
I guess it's because tomorrow's a Saturday ?
lol lol lol lollipop

hmm, I want an Irish setter, Newfoundland, Great Dane and a Siberian Husky.
wow.

I saw this guy, with a retriever puppy, so cute
and another guy, with an alsation, a hound and a retriver. OMG ?
oh and another with a schnauzer. lol
ok so they are like young guys like in their twenties
then got this uncle and his jack russell.
HA HA HA . but the jack looks really adorable

oh and I just remembered something, I saw this sweaty uncle jogging at BBNP, then I thought he didnt wear shorts luh !
so disgusting, his shirt is too long as if he was wearing someone elses night gown . LOL
damn funny.

aiya, anyway I can't bring bubbles to jog
he's too old so i normally carry him down to see hot guys with me .
yeh, at the pool.
HEE.
I'm not chee ko pek

hee, anyway, my objective of going down to the pool is to see little kids,
not that I want kidnap them or anything ,
their just so cute ! aiyo~
lol. I saw this ang moh girl, so pretty >< *envy*

kay lah bye.

Love is like playing the piano,
first you must learn to play by the rules,
then you forget the rules and play from your heart.

2009-05-13T00:54:00.000-07:00

Alright, I'm so sorry for my emo and mushy posts previously.
I can't help it.
I don't want to write it, I mean what if my sis saw it and READ IT OUT LOUD or to herself or what ever .

Or what if my mum SEES it lying on the floor or pasted on the wall of hidden in my cupboard.
TERRIBLE isn't it ?

SO yeah, I posted it. TO THE WORLD
ha.

Anyway, I was trying to dilute this feeling in me can,
walao.
I don't know, its not exactly bothering me,
I don't really like it
BUT sometimes I do .

I'm weird.

No, I'm not.

but really.
if you see me smiling or laughing to myself,
don't be frightened okay?

I just so happen to be stuck in this BAD DREAM (nightmare luhh)
*deceiving myself*

aiya,
I want to do well for Os okay.
and I want to go CJC.

SO I always tell myself to work hard lah.
I know can .
YES VALERIE, YOU CAN.

what luhh...

I don't know what I have posted in the above text lahh ok.
happy figuring.
Oh my birthday's coming ^^
YAY .

2009-05-13T00:40:00.000-07:00

Why, yes.
I miss the times where we had long chats over the line.
and having that bubbly feeling in me.

oh well.
I wished I could turn back time.
which is impossible.

I hate it when I walk to the train station,
because I know I won't be able to see you there.
I don't know

I'm still waiting though,
I am
and I will.

Well,
this just spells disappointment
so.

Its been quite some time now,
and I still think of you
everytime.

I don't know.
I'm not exactly happy,
neither am I really sad

I'm not lost in some kinda alien world
Or am I?
well.

2009-05-10T06:34:00.000-07:00

Balls people BALLS !
what ?
Yah, so anyway I managed to Half-complete two sets of songs *happy*
lalala~
DIFFICULT CAN.

Oh yah, mid-year
WALAO .
I
TELL
YOU
Mother-tongue papers
so MF-ing difficult.

yah so, uh huh.
but nevermind luh, I tried my best
best of bestest
bestest of best

every test paper = new hope for me = achieve better grades = make myself happy
*think positively*
yah yah yah.

I like the mirror,
the mirror loves me.

Oh, my hair, they're got split-ends =(
FRET NOT, I'll feed you with conditioner !

Okay lah bye.

It's not my fault I love you, it's yours .

2009-05-02T08:21:00.000-07:00

You know that I'm waiting and you have to know that I really like you. No, I love you.
Well, I was reading what we used to be chatting is the little conversation box in msn, me and you. I was reading it, and as I went on I could no longer hold back the tears, they just rolled down and trickled onto the ground. I told myself to be strong and I shoudn't even be reading it, but I couldnt help it, because I can't stop thinking of you. You told me you'll be different, and so I trusted you on that, but it seems that I've deceived myself again. Yet again, I told myself to believe. That being with you makes me happy, just thinking of the first time we got together lifts me up but at the same time knowing what had happened just kills this feeling. I miss being teased by you and holding your hands and walking me back home. Jumping into puddles and still holding your hands....
I can't help but to love you more and more. To be in your embrace and knowing that you love me, it's a blessing.
God has plans, I know.

I'll keep waiting, even if it takes forever.

Fred, you know that I love you.

Cousin's wedding on my Birthday. I'm thrilled and over the moon .

2009-04-23T06:21:00.000-07:00

Can't wait for piano lessons ^^ omg omg ~
There's this person, LOL
I want to see.
JUST SEE.
Glimspe of that person . Mohohohoho
*wriggles eyebrows*
Look Look mah xD
okay luhh, I just want to know that person can ?
xD
BUT I'LL STILL BE WAITING FOR THAT SOMEONE.
okay anyway, back to the I-WANT-TO-KNOW-THAT-PERSON topic =DDD
okay, so that person plays the piano, I like guys who can play the piano, they're cute can, not literally cute so yeh .
But not those whom are like taking the lower grades luhh =.=" WELL UNLESS THEY CAN PLAY WELL :/
Oh, I hate drums.
So I had NAPFA today. yay-ness :D
Well, as usual the same boring SCARY dumb things they have, the one where you have to jump and probably fall on your butt and feel all ouchy.
Then you have this where you stretch all your veins and push this little metal chip with your fingers / LONG nails.
Also, where you have to race to the other end to pick up two cute little WOODEN BLOCKS, plus you can add in so cute imaginations like the little wooden blocks screaming for help and you have to race across to save their lives ? aww.
oh oh and the WORMY PULL PULL, where many people starts the WAVE ~~ oohhh . well .. you know, lastly the sit-ups . yeh .
okayluhhfunlor.
I'm counting down to THE END OF 'O' LEVELS, 9th October 2009.

2009-04-17T02:27:00.000-07:00

C.O.P
choir choir choir, what's wrong.
aiya, anyway, _ _ didn't bother to ask me anything too :/
_ _ seems so busy, and I wonder if _ _ 'll remember _ _ .
O levels sounds so terrifying ><
ughh, anyway I'm get agitated easily lately =/
I'm hating Mrs L MORE & MORE. that B****
You not only took our rest time, you took more than you want.
It's not out fault that we've got to miss your lessons okay YOU B****.
Hello? it's public holidays, moreover you've already wanted us to give you back the time that
you claimed that it's yours, so we did. Now what, you want us to stay back for more ? Don't be such a M***** F*****, see you need us to hand in our work and work of good quality standard, but please just use you effing useless pea brain to think, SPARE A THOUGHT FOR US, that given such a SHORT period of time, how do you expect us to give you work of good standard.
You WITCH, take up so much of our time and still complaining that we have yet to give you back the time that you wanted so much. Zzzzz, you think you are being reasonable, but sadly you aren't. You're taking up so much of our time that we don't have sufficient time left for other subjects. and that every teacher wants students to prioritise our time well, SO WE DID, BUT what they meant was to priortise our time to SUIT THEIR TIMETABLE/ SCHEDULE. Mrs L and Mdm T. You EVIL WITCHES.
BlOODY F&N.
CURSES.
SELFISH WHOREs
HEARTLESS MONSTERS
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU EVIL TEACHERS. Ughh, at least we have other teachers that are of a total opposite of you OR ELSE we might just die of having LOUSY teachers like you two.
Okay seriously, both of you teachers have poor anger management.
Factor one: PMS?
Factor two: Age is catching up ?
Factor three: Had a tiff with your husband?
Factor four: More wrinkles?
Factor five: More white hair?
Factor six: Saggy neh neh ?
Factor seven: Excessive weight gain?
Factor eight: Not receiving enough attention from your spouse?
(no wonder you two are always holding us back)

How can you vent your anger on the poor students?
I know it's hard having to shoulder responsibilities and the pressure given by your superiors are coming down hard on you. SO YOU THINK WE DON'T HAVE ANY STRESS UH ..
WALAO EHH KNNB CCB M***** F***** &%#@#)*!?

2009-04-15T07:20:00.001-07:00

Okay, I'm unhappy.
Why, I don't know.
Maybe because SOMEONE does not have the intiative to do things :/
Probably FAR TOO BUSY with school and friends.
Or simply knowing that there is actually time but the fact that having to text me will bore that oneself.
I don't know, but I guess _ _ saw me, BUT _ _ simply couldn't care less to even walk up to say hi.
ABSTINENCE.
yes, that is the word.
I don't know, but it makes me think alot.
Wonder why.
Pondering about many scary consequences/scenarios. LOL, but yeh.
I hate it, but it never seems to get out of my puny head.
I know it a very critical and tense year, but CAN _ _ _ atleast have a little heart ><
Show a little more care and concern. OMG~
*BIG BIG HINT* can caN cAN CAN CANNN??
one big problem, walao you think I got so thick skinned meh, everyday want to see you uh, yes i want but i know you can't so I understand. I won't pester you everyday de luhh. Zzzzz.
Can't even send the thingy called a message to ask if i'm alright/ how's school (insert any care&concern Qs).
Mei liang xin.
yah la yah la, study lah study lah.
See _ _ _ now i also don't have anything to say. so foreign. so ODD. awkward.
I can even forget about the things I want to tell you lah . you PABO .
I hate this.

2009-04-12T06:23:00.000-07:00

EFFING GAY IND*** MAN.
Well, today what surprises me the most is that this little pig was the surprise himself ^^
ZHU ^^ I love you so much, thanks for coming ^^
Hmm, well today was wonderful, *pictures the scene* uhh, beautiful =)
EXCEPT THAT GAY IND*** MAN. You MF , !$%^&*(?#*!*(&@
Im so good at making up stories to THAT IND*** MAN.
SICKO IND*** MAN

OK OK, im like so lethargic today ><
sigh sigh.
Im sorry =(
Uhh, it just felt so blissful to have you with me ^^

waah, sad sad, didn't manage to get my song book T.T
BOOs to that =(
Oh well, nevermind.
Got myself a hoodie today ,
well it looks cute, so yeh I got it =) *happy*
Oh oh ~ now I just need a pair of flats. the current one is rotting ><
ughh.
I got a black one though, but I don't seem to ba able to find any suitable clothings for it =/
You're so mean shoes !
don't bother xD

I didn't get to talk alot with Zhu today T.T
My brain's empty, previous information I've stored seem to all be in the trashbin =(
I couldn't dig out any topic to chat about.
I don't know so I tried the Actions speak louder than words.
so yeh ^^
HEE.

ok, im going back to do my fnn.
Im happy really not xD FNN SUCKS YEH ?

haha .
Bye.
I'm loving you more day by day Fred ^^

2009-04-11T07:05:00.000-07:00

Effing bored can ?
WHAT ?
Ughh, what can I do.
This is far Far FAR FAR FAR too ridiculous.

WHAT IS THIS.
WAPHIANG.
OGRE.
GREEN, disgusting, yucky, stinky, gross, unimaginable shitty creature. EW EW EW
I mean, ___ don't even bother _________________ me that you _____________
So, _______ just left _______________alone.
Not ____________ a single thing.
Like **** *** **** right?
I ________________ days
And now I got such _____________________
Do __________________ care?
I am always the one __________.
___ are always ___________
Make me ____________.
FOR SO ___________
***********

2009-04-10T07:04:00.000-07:00

Good Friday is GOOD indeed ^^
FINALLY ! I'm freed from the many days of MISERY

><>
*tears of joy*

*sniffs*
so you lost your phone.
You muddlehead ><
Like XPP wor =p
hee.. ^^
I'm just so glad.
LOL
What was I thinking for the past few days =/
Hu si luan xiang-ing ><

I thought .... =S
Hmm Hmm.. but everything's fine now ^^
So many days le ... =(
I so want to see you ><

LOL
=S
Hmm, kay bye.

2009-04-06T06:14:00.000-07:00

Stitch has been officially promoted to my boyfriend (substitute though~)
Hee, is that cool or is that cool ?
WOW~
Oh well, everytime I walk down to the interchange, I feel so alone.
Everytime I look at my phone, it displays Disappointment.
*hint hint*

Text me luhh ><
Oh well~ God has plans
I know.
I'll be good.
I won't be pestering you.
But I have been missing you more and more lately.

Okay back to school chapter.
Had a good and hearty laughing session today HEE
That is something healthy =D
Well, it ranges from Neltch - Sexy + MANLY teachers (not) - Obscene topics ;)

Aiyo and hopefully TT wont be changing Breastfriend's seat again ><
HANA ~ EEE
I promise I'll behave and that I will keep real quiet during math lesson okay ? (NOT)
>< *crosses fingers*
HA!
zzzzz, nevermind. Im so lazy =(
Aiya, who cares.
EEEE, I want/yearn/need/ etc etc Zhu .
ARGH.

VALERIE ! snap outta it !
*slap*
=O
walao~
I can't help it =(
Hmm, oh I've been eating alot AGAIN.
like @*)%^#!*^#!!?@$$*
SIGH
SIGH
I need to talk to someone *hint hint*
SOMEONE/PIG *HINT HINT HINT* ><

VALERIE ! ENOUGH!!
okthanksbye. goodnight

2009-04-06T05:28:00.000-07:00

Neltch neltch xD
don't bother searching it in the dictionary ;)
IT DOESN'T EXIST IN THE DICTIONARY.
Mdm XXX used that to I don't know scold us?
Hm, well she's just trying to say like nope and some other nonsense but ended up combining/joining/mixing/blending up all her mean phrases together, and there you have NELTCH.
How cool xD
Well, so today's Neltch Day xD
WHAT ~
like what is so wrong with her, she's trying to scream and shout at almost everyone in our class?
WHAT IS THIS ~
PA-BO !!
C'mon TT, see by screaming even your lungs out, it won't make things better, it'll only get WORSE THAN WORST yeh?
So.. you should just talk to us nicely, no shout shout, smile more, no scream scream, smile even more, no SHOWING OF THAT EFFING FACE, SO SMILE LIKE NO ONE ELSE'S BUSINESS HOR.
OKAY UHH.
Please luhh TT, c'mon you are holding the damn bloody mike, AND YOU HAVE GOTTA TALK LOUDER THAN LOUDLY ?!?!
WHAT IS THIS ~
Can you spare a thought for our poor little ears that have been like under you torture for over a extremely long period of time.
Can you please be MORE WOMANLY and less MAN/BEASTLY ROARING. lol
C'mon, please, if you scold less, teach more, Hillgrove will be a better place and Bukit Batok will also be more peaceful.
Thanks.

2009-03-30T07:07:00.000-07:00

You're all I'm thinking of
I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love
I cherish every hug, every moment with you
I really love you
I really do and I always will
Now and till forever ^^

Oh wow , Monday , and I can do vectors today =O
MIRACLE
The contents in my little brain entails me going bonkers.
WHOOPS.
Okay, I've been so selfish because I have not spared a thought for my dear's feeling T.T
I'M SO SORRY =(
I'm such an idiot and a fucktard.
I'm really sorry if I've made you worry so much.
Oh forgive me for I am just an ignorant person =(
I don't want you to be upset okay ?
You know that I love you more than anything else ^^
yupp, so you must stay happy alright ?
Zhu ^^
You're so wonderful, so perfect =)
^^

2009-03-29T03:37:00.000-07:00

YES I UNDERSTAND ><
YES I KNOW ><
YES I WILL KNOW WHAT TO DO ><
YES I BELIEVE THAT TIME IS NOT BY MY SIDE ><
YES THIS SUCKS !
Ughh... _________ (insert any expletive)
Don't bother.
I don't know how to feel right now.
Tell me what should I be feeling now?
HUH
Should I be feeling anything?
Yes, but what?
CALLOUS !
INIQUITOUS !
UNSPEAKABLE !
Excessive sighing, this is unhealthy !
*SIGH*
UGHHH, EFFYOUSEEKAY-ed up.
=D
IM SO HAPPY, not.
I LOVE YOU,too much.
I WILL NEVER STOP THINKING OF YOU, it's true.
Oh~ this is addiction.

2009-03-28T22:02:00.000-07:00

Boiled balls.
Sorry, Zhu ><
HAHAHAHAHAH ! it's just that I can't help it but be disgusting =p
LALALALALA~~
Underwear uncle =D
eeee. all the sick thoughts xD
KAY BYE

2009-03-27T14:09:00.000-07:00

Very very very confused state.
I don't know, but I don't seem to be able to focus in class anymore.
I have lost interest in studies, can't even have the sense of responsibility to complete any assignments.
What an idiot.
I wasn't Valerie for this entire week.
Well, there were the hurling of unruly expletives for no apparent reasons.
Things that are so feasible seems so IMPOSSIBLE for me.
Like I don't even have an urge to do even the most simple things like packing my bag, WHAT IS WRONG.
Sigh, I hate all those uninspiring supplementary classes.
HELLO? No point going back to have all these and ending up not learning anything.
Give me a break !
SCHOOL = ENORMITY !
School + unneccessary supplementary classes = Valerie being enslaved.
SAVE ME .
Ew. I hate school =(
I want so many things !
Here's the list :

Ice-cream
Cotton candy
Chocolate
Waffles
Marshmallows
Hello panda
Juicy watermelon
Chou dou fu !

Yeh.... EXCESSIVE WEIGHT GAIN !

This is bad... I need to exercise.

I just did some shopping and brought along my ATM machines =D who else but mom & dad =)

TODAY I SAW THIS MAN PLAYING WITH AN UNDERWEAR IN HIS CAR.

LIKE I FEAST MY EYES AND I WAS ENGROSSED INTO SUCH A SIGHT .

OOOOO..... UHHHHHH....

WA PHIANG !

damn funny luh, like Ew.

Okay, see... I was in my dad's car,

Then caught in T.jam

So I was looking around,

HOW WOULD I KNOW

when I just so happen to turn and face this driver next to my dad's car.

AND WELL... YEH... He took this blue piece of cloth ( the underpants luhh !)

and started like pulling and stretching it ...

upon closer observations xD BY ME

I found out that it was A UNDERWEAR. WOW

He's like a perv luh, I MEAN AREN'T YOU SUPPOSE TO BE CONCENTRATING WHEN YOU DRIVE.

HOW CAN YOU PLAY WITH THE UNDERPANTS SIR !??

HOW CAN YOU ?

DO YOU KNOW HOW DANGEROUS IT CAN BE TO PLAY WITH YOUR UNDERPANTS?

AND WHAT IS GOING ON IN YOUR MIND WHEN YOU WERE PULLING YOUR UNDERWEAR? WHY ARE YOU STRETCHING IT IN YOUR VEHICLE AND IS THAT EVEN YOU UNDERWEAR? Ew. SICKO

Ew, yuck. It's not like this or that BUT I of course enjoyed my trip home xD

Oh well, the underwear uncle so hilarious luh, doing such things.

TSK. But if you were there with me, I bet you'll laughed like there'll be no tomorrow.

WHAT A DAY.

2009-03-23T04:09:00.001-07:00

Greetings.
Stayed at home to recuperate xD
SO IT MEANS NO SCHOOL FOR ME TODAY . YAY-ness
Well, didn't have anything fun to do at home . GAH...
nevermind. Oh, and I missed phototaking in school today, but who cares.
Just a photo with d*** faces (no offence) and moreover tehteh's face is in there, OH PLEASE DON'T SCARE ME =/
Well, sometimes I envy my friend's parents, especially their moms.
Sigh, my mom is.. I don't know.. selfish?
She's always giving me this angry look on her face and talks to me so angrily and I so hate it.
Like WTF ~
Effing face.
UGHH, her body language shows too. ARGH, ridiculous mom. stupid.
WHATEVER F*** that is.
I'm swearing again. shit it.
TSK, I'm so angry can? Walaoo.. imagine you coming back from school, so tired so restless already OR so happy because you've got an eventful day in school BUT the minute you step into the house YOU SEE THAT KINDA STUPID FACE. Who would like it right ?
Then she'll claim that it's bacause of her work giving her too much stress and that she's tired blahblahblah, SHUT UP .
So do you think that you are the only one with so much stress? HUH .
Have you even put yourself in my position, NO.
Zzzz.
I tried so hard to make you feel happier, but you never seem to notice me mom.
You only talk to me nicely when you feel good, and when you aren't, you don't even care at all.
That is why I would rather stay out till late at night when everyone else in the house is asleep and then I'll go home.
I don't even like talking to you anymore mom. You've gone overboard this time. TOO MUCH OF YOU AND YOUR NONSENSE.
You don't even know how I feel, you don't even know how much you feelings can affect mine.
Can you not vent your anger on me again ?
I'm not your servant or pet or anything else ok, I AM YOUR DAUGHTER. HELLO?
I don't know what to do now. This is irritating.
I hate this.
Eat your shit.

2009-03-22T03:15:00.000-07:00

WHY OH WHY ~
Had fever yesterday night till this morning =(
But still I tried to make myself feel better because I want to meet up with dear ^^
So, woke up at 6 to shower and then pop the pills.
=
Oh well, didn't feel any better though..
And waited for dear to come, then I felt so restless, wanted to tell him not to come, BUT I missed him so much =( So I ren ! hehe ^^
Met at 8 and went to panjang to have breakfast and did some homework =)
Oh I felt so much better after that ^^ I forgot that I was still having a fever xD
But the time I spent with Zhu is so short ! *sad-DED* T.T
well, BUSY PIG xD
afterwards, homed and zhu went for his swim? uh huh . So when I got home, OH GOSH, I felt bad churn in my stomach . Felt feverish again =/ Thought it'll go off after awhile BUT I WAS WRONG.
So I slept from 11 till 2.30, woke up. Then felt worse, headache + nausea + restless = OMG
Couldn't walk properly, and I was so hungry but when I saw the food, I felt like puking.
no appetite then, but in the end I decided to have a cup of tea, and asked mom to spread smth on my mian bao, ate and went to the doc's.
OH~ then I found out I had gastric flu =/
The doc. so fierce de luhh . Walaoo, didn't even smile . pfft. then like want to fight like that. walaoo.
and it took only 2 minutes. *phew*
I hate being sick !
So I had porridge after I got home, had a few mouthful and I couldn't even finish one quarter of it. really had no appetite =(
I feel like having mian bao now xD
Oh well, and THEN what's worse is I HAVE TO TAKE MY MEDICINE. walaoo.
I so so hate it . Yuck.
EEEEEEE.
gross.
Oh and I so want to hold Zhu's hands now =D
My joy-pill =D
Oh well, guess i'll have to end my post here now, I'll have a mianbao first and then start work .
Bye .
I love my dearest Zhu ^^ I want to hold your hands and never let go ^^
I want to love you more ^^

2009-03-20T22:16:00.000-07:00

*smiles* HELLO PEOPLE =D
Hmm.. just had tuition and now blogging, will be off for piano afterwards.
Oh boy~ thinking of all the UNDONE holiday workSHITS makes me sick.
Will be finishing all homework by today, hopefully xD SO I can spend some quality time with my pig tomorrow ^^ hee. *happy*
going to get shoes later on =) YES!
ok. I gotta go prepare now. bye.

2009-03-20T04:58:00.000-07:00

Let's talk about romance ?
^^
Well, today is the happiest day of my life ^.^
I'm officially attached to my dear Zhu ^^
Though I may have kept mum almost all the time, I feel so much inside me ^^ all the happy thoughts and emotions collected together and circulating all over me . whoo? haha ^^ I'm so in love :D And I am loving it!
I am blessed to have him ^^
I AM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO x 10 to the power of 10 HAPPY RIGHT NOW ^^
Loves ^^

2009-03-19T09:15:00.000-07:00

It'll be a everlasting relationship.
I believe in it, I trust you.
I am sure of it . No doubts.
Now is the matter of handling it well enough with intelligence, faith.
No assumptions.
Believe and be sure of it . Yes.
I am serious about this alright ? It's not a game or anything ok. So no BUTS.

2009-03-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

Ni men hao ~
*sneezes*
Oh well, Im having this stupid FLU.
Morning: Jumped outta bed because I was already late, supposed to be awake by 7 but I woke up at 8 instead.
Had blocked nose, then as usual, brushed teeth, change undies, tie hair, put on the grotesque uniform of mine *yuck* , grabbed socks ,find shoes, so in short, I ran around the house like a mad woman.
Had breakfast in the bus.
I look awful today =/
Puffy eyeballs, red nose (rudolph), PLUS I was wearing my specs, made me look like a complete TOOT. Oh my ~
Hmm, then reached school, I WASN'T LATE OKAY. lucky me =D
BUT I WAS REALLY TIRED. SO COLD, and then started to sneeze like WHAT, walaoo.
effing airconditioner.
pfft.
Did sectionals, sang like mouse. like squeaks ..
BUTT, I meant BUT ....... Yes I could sing aloud afterwards. YAY-ness =D
But still, I am sleepy =/
I don't know but people seem to know that I cried yesterday though they didn't attend choir practice. HOW ODD.
Oh HELLO TO THE CERTAIN PEOPLE OUT THERE STOP SPREADING NEWS ABOUT ME LIKE PEANUT BUTTER AND JAM.
random-ness. don't bother.
Oh oh, come back ~ hmm.. sing/sang songs till 12 then LUNCH , heh ~
IM AWAKE BY THEN =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
waited for Corlissa =) but ended up walking to westmall first because , I don't know, we don't like waiting for so long ? xD probably =/
hmm, Too Long Too Bad. See you xD
HEH ~ *evilness*
sorry Corlissa =(
After lunch, went back, to be precise, we STROLLED BACK.
=D
wanted to have ice-cream BUT my nose and all the sneezy problems IM SO SORRY THAT I REJECTED YOU ICE CREAM. =(
aww.. xD siao ~
sing lor, till 5 .
then I treat myself to a WAFFLE.
A CHOCOLATE + BLUEBERY WAFFLE =)
I LOVE WAFFLES AND WAFFLES LOVE ME XD yum yum =D
No~ I Love my Dear Zhu ^^
went to Corlissa house to get my facial foam =D LIKE YES ! FINALLY ! heeee..
then walked back to batok int.change
bus back home.
Nothing nice to eat at home so I decided to have just rice and kimchi =D
OOOO~ the spiciness just perks me up ~
OH mama . and still I continued sneezing like nobody's business xD
walaoo .. wasted so many tissues, sorry uhh trees =/ can't help
so like that lor, showered, flossed + brushed teeth, AS USUAL LUHH.
and here lor. blogging.
Hao xiang nian Zhu ^^ loves ^^
Kay bye.

2009-03-17T01:58:00.000-07:00

What was once a casual friendship has slowly been growing into a more deep and meaningful relationship. AND I AM REALLY LOVING IT ^^
Im just so so happy today ^^ hee .. really I am ^^ THRILLED ^^
How I wish time could have just stopped there and we'll be together now and forever.
Zhu ^^
I love you ^^
hmm.. Im feel so blessed to have him ^^ and to be with him.
though I still behave like a child =(
Oh My God, I am just plain happy now, like euphoria now ! haha ! ^^
How I wish everyday would be like today minus the rushing for tuition part xD
Alright then, I guess I gotta end my post here =( got the stupid FNN to complete.
I'll be missing zhu so so much !
LOVES ^^
tata~

2009-03-16T20:39:00.001-07:00

Hey peeps =)
was friggin late for dinner ytd. __ luhh .............
forget it . just so angry . i mean hello ?
I AM WAITING FOR ZHU NOW xD
its like 12:31 pm now ..
sigh ..
wonder if he's coming soon or not .
gonna have lunch with that pig =)
AND YES ! i received his text at 12:34pm
COOL
ok . he's on his way xD and hopefully he doesn't lose his way here xD
or I'll have to go to SPCA to report for a lost pig. MUAHAHAHAHAH!

okay bye .

2009-03-15T06:27:00.000-07:00

The reason God put spaces between your fingers was so that someone else could fill them up.
and without you, I'm beautifully broken .
TOTAL EMO-ness

2009-03-15T04:52:00.000-07:00

That special someone ~ I feel like I'm losing him again
(probably over-reacting) *knocks on the head*
ughh .. I feel useless suddenly. i feel sad . a lil.
NO I'M NOT ! DEFINETELY NOT !

He's there but I don't know if I am deceiving myself.
is he there ? yes ! T.T
I just miss you zhu =( so badly .
sigh ..
Let me be your hands when you say your grace .
I love you Fred ^^

Hmm.. today is a BORING SUNDAY .
had tuition early in the morning, was sleeping like a pig, drooled all over my pillow xD
HAHA NO LUHH .. that was crap .
Hmm.. though I woke up early, I didn'thave the mood to attend tuition .
The teacher's damn friggin fierce. LIKE A MONSTER .
Hmm .. and her teaching SUCKS.
YES, IT SUCKED .
suckedy-suck-suck.
*angry*
tsk tsk . ANYWAY ...
then after tuition 10:00am - 12:00pm, went to bukit timah food centre to have lunch, early lunch. =]
Was wearing my nerdy specs =\ and of course i felt toot.
Hmm hmm hmm.. lunched with mom & dad.
Went home. computered till 3 and then did my F&N experiment on roux sauce .
I DID IT ALL ALONE .
WAS A MESS and almost a disaster but I SUCCEEDED OK .
heee ... out of three only one looke like roux sauce, the other two look like faeces (SHIT) =)
faeces sounds nicer xD or you want stool ? or defecate? or poop ? whatever it is . YES IT LOOKED LIKE THOSE THINGS =(
But it was an experiment what . who cares
GUESS WHAT , I placed all my spread sheet on the kitchen floor ( cos i needed alot of space, im messy, that's why) AND SOOOOOO the two stupid dogs of mine ate it all up !
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU TWO DOGS ! SPEAK ! or BARK ! whichever ! BAD DOG !
tsk... THAK GOD i have already take the photos i need of the roux sauce or else NO DINNER FOR YOU TWO ! bad poodle !
But then again.. its ok doggies =) I forgive both you furry things =)
hmm.. and during the experiment, the stupid me scalded myself . clumsy clumsy =(
TWICE . wth ~
*knocks on the kuku head* =(
SIGH.
took me 2 hrs + + to finish my experiment .
and I recorded every detail into the data table, uploaded the pictures, not my photos, the roux sauce pictures and then typed out the entire COURSEWORK PART B .
STUPID LUHH .
probably gonna do up my development afterwards =( BORING !
sigh.. what can I do . do lor ... do F&N
and tmr ~! got TT's remedial , ehh nooo , ITS EXTRA LESSONS
__ luhh .
sorry .. pardon me for all my vulgarities ._.
hmm... then got F&N after that . SO IT MEANS I'LL BE IN SCHOOL, HILLGROVE SECONDARY SCHOOL ,from 9:00am to 3:30pm
DARN YOU TEACHERS , stupid remedials ! dang you extra lessons ! TSK
*pui*
*sticks tongue*
ARGH..
well well .. and here I am . so bored ! stuck I
I NEED TO GO OUT ! SAVE ME FROM THIS ! AHHHHHHHH~~~!
*starts to sing suddenly* =O she's going mad ! =O
haha no luhh !
sad sad sad .. I HATE SCHOOL !

sigh ~~ and I miss zhu =(
I wish he's with me now .
I've got so many things I wanna tell him.
Will his surprise be telling me that he'll be busy ?
SIGH... this is killing me.
well.. he probably forgot about it already .
How sad .
alright then .. I'll stop here .
You won't know how i am feeling right now .
I love you Fred, now and forever, and I always will .

2009-03-14T17:57:00.000-07:00

A little disappointed. Not looking forward to the holidays, knowing HE would be very busy and so will I be.
SHIT THIS .
He's been very busy lately. I am too but not as busy as he is.
OH WELL what can I do, no matter how much I wanna see him, I shall try my best not to show.
He just needs more time. I don't know.
He is always telling me he'll do this and that but in the end, he doesn't.
That is when I feel rather upset.
and when upset + upset + more upset and disappointing stuff is adds up to total depression .
this isn't good at all !
Sometimes I just feel like telling him off, but then again, I'll tell myself that he's already so stressed up, why must I add on to it. So I'll just shut up and he'll have all the peace he needs and that he'll also have some time to relax.
And I hopefully all these little things I'm doing will help him. I just want you to be happy Fred =)
because I love you .

2009-03-12T04:23:00.000-07:00

Hellooooooo =D
It's thursday ! And probably is the best thursday Valerie has ever had for the first few months of the year !
GOT AN A2 FOR ENGLISH !
YES !!
^^ *delighted* heeee...
Well today,, THANKS TO THE DUMB ACE LEARNING thingy, we had no math lesson !
Yes ! But TT scolded us =( sorry but our class is just so playful,we can't help it =D TOO BAD TT!
well,we had to be in the comp lab see, so we were there enjoying the aircon of course, sad thing is Im being seperated from corlissa and my breastfriend, YES my BREASTfriend, hana =(
walao... stupid TT's GREAT idea for all of us to sit with a person of opp. gender.
Then of course the usual things like shoutings, scolding, picking of students, arguing so on and so forth (never ending). Oh well, what can I say about TT. NOTHING
she's just too FU**ed up nowadays, SO NAGGY, SO BITCHY . YES AND MORE. she's making the whole class hate her.
She probably can't handle such stress, why did the school even post her so many graduating classes ? =/ OUR FUTURE !! NOOOOOOO!!~~~ hello ? can you please tear you eyelids and apply more eye solution school ? hello, its TT ok ? she dangerous ! She's not helping us at all ?
OK ! enough !
hmm... then of course I stayed back to help my fellow SLs to clean up the SL room =)
super dusty ! and i was tired =(
THANK GOD zhu texted me to keep me awake xD
I was literally dozing off ! hee.. atleast zhu's there when I needed him ^^ I love you piggy ^^
Well, we lunched from 3 - 3.30 and then started the cleaning from 3.30 to 5 plus?
SO BORING . emptied the trash and sorted out one thick, smelly dusty,sandy etc etc pile of paper, all the camp stuff! germinated my butt on the floor and sorted them out lazily ...
well i was really tired =( and i missed zhu so so much ! *cry*
YAY ! one more day to holidays ! is that cool or is that just cool ? xD
hee..
WALAOOOO . there's classroom cleaning tmr. *nghhhhh*
and of course we received many many holiday worksheets already =/ sian ...
Zhu had his X-country today.. but he sounded rather disappointed with his performance =(
don sad le luhh piggy =( I feel you T.T
SMILE! I'll comfort you when I meet you the next time xD
hee...
thinking of march holidays, well 90% of my time will be forced back to school definetely, not that i like the school, but THE SCHOOL LIKES ME =p
sick luhh !
SO F F F F F F F F F F F F effing school!
*swear words*
hopefully my L1R4 isn't above 25 cos i don't want to be in the useless study programme after school, where they claim to HELP you (like real) and that you'll be able to concentrate more and whatever bullshit that is .
DON'T WASTE MY TIME . I can do it by myself . SO thanks but NO THANKS.
not boasting of whatever , I just think that it's a waste of time and energy, see students are already half dead after a long day of school (inc supp classes and remedials), AND WHO WILL STILL HAVE THE ENERGY TO STUDY IN SCHOOL TILL 6 or 7? we get bored, sick and tired of it. i would rather you allow us to go home and do our self study than to keep us back in school and DO USELESS REVISIONs.
seriuosly i don't learn anything .
Oh well, today is a happy happy day, therefore I shall no post too much unhappy stuff in my post.
Tomorrow's jie burpdayy =) hee ! LAO YI SUI LE ! muahahahah !
Im so so so so happy today, despite me being all tired and even more tired xD
Im so glad to know that someone is there to care for me, to love me ^^
ZHU ^^ you luhh ^^ hee ..
hao le bah . i shall end my post here =)
shall post again the next day =) or later . HEE .
toodles people =D

2009-03-11T08:12:00.000-07:00

Helloooooooooooooooo ^^
I'm so happy today ^^ Finally I can talk to Fred online le . pardon my english.
I LOVE YOU FRED ^^ I love you with all my heart ^^ always, forever, and ever will love you^^
Oh My God.. I'm just thrilled that I can even post about my happiness and use broken english to express it. xD
I've never had such a long long chat with zhu le ^^ and now I only need to see him, it's been such a long time since we've last saw each other. I miss you Fred, yes I do.alot alot ! haha ^^
I love the way you speak and answer me. So sweet ! really ^^
For you are the sweetest guy I've ever met . serious =) the things you tell me ^^
Though you've put me through so many sad and evil things, it's alright.
I love you . I really do ^^
Alright, that's enough, I'll be saving all the sweet juicy happiness for myself . YES ALL TO MYSELF.

Oh well, today we had fun in school =)
Can't believe our class can do evil things to the teachers like locking them outside of the classroom. Well it's kinda fun actually =p
see.. everyone would be shhhhh-ing at each other and that's the fun part. More fun ? yes, giggles and chuckles silently xD and the teacher poking his head up and trying to peep into the classroom and everyone would be like having their faces glued to the table xD
Can you imagine us doing all this. yes but it fun though =)
alright, I guess i gotta stop here .
Im going to sleep le .. Night people =)
I'll be dreaming of Zhu ^^ woaini^^

2009-03-10T05:27:00.000-07:00

Hello.
Today is just another day, hectic day.
Went to school, had lessons, photo taking, went to westmall, went home, walked the dogs, kor called me to tell me he's bald and Fred texted me ^^
Well, Im not sad neither am I happy.
It's like I'm hamburgered in the middle of these two emotions, like a patty =)
Valerie patty.
I can't believe time passes so quickly =/ like in a blink of an eye and it's the next day. *blinks*
=O time for me to bathe now . HANG ON ! xD
Sigh, I want March holidays to start now ! NOW ! NOW ! NOW!
argh.. I wanna watch movies ! I wanna study with zhu!
argh.. But it's already Tuesday. Few more days to go ! *excited*
hmm.. guess I won't be able to see him this week then, busy busy busy.
Nevermind, atleast I'm looking forward to tomorrow's choir practice =)
It's fun when you get to talk about all the sick stuff during choir =x
sorry, but f.y.i I can be really sick sometimes =)
ask my friends xD
And I'm meeting kor this friday =) so long never see him le . haha guess he'll be free bah =/
sian !! THINKING OF THURSDAY.
WALAOOOOO. no life man .. no life at all !
it's like the longest,boring-est,lifeless, etc etc MOST TERRIBLE day of the week. F thursdays.
LOL
I guess this will be the suckiest post I'm ever gonna post.
walaoo , like putting all the shit in my mind into it .
FULLSTOP

2009-03-09T05:10:00.000-07:00

Hello ! Well, I've given up on my brilliant plan =D
I am right, today will be a better day for me . It is, somehow.
Got a new haircut! Not showing anyone =D
Things have changed a great deal for me .
Yes, I've changed ALOT. I've learnt to forgive and forget easily, im less tempermental now, I've learn to give in more easily though i still react like a kid sometimes =/
I'm laughing more just to make myself feel less sad =)
I've been through many things, things that have made me change. probably to a better person, a better girl.
Yes, but still I sometimes still behave like a child =/ but who cares. It's me, like it or not it's your business, as long as I am happy being myself.
I am still as childish as ever, those who know me will KNOW xD
and I can still be immature sometimes,sorry.
Well, now.. I have also learn to understand what are some expectations of others and realise what I have to do. Don't know what am I talking ? I don't know either.
Yes, incomplete. Uh huh , I am.
Lost the true happiness in me, I NEED TLC !
muahahahahah !
yes I really need. Sigh..
they just took my happiness away ! just like that ! and threw it away like as if it was some kinda trash trash. I am sad.
all the love for you simply drained me dry, dried off all my happy happy happiness. Thanks to YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
Prove to me then, that you truly love me . SHOW IT TO ME . Well?
SHIT YOU O levels !
I'll let time do the healing =)
Joy-pills of my life, hmm =/

2009-03-08T09:05:00.000-07:00

Good Morning !
Hello 9th March 2009
Hopefully today will be better than the previous days =) *hopes*
Well, yes I'm awake now but I am sleeping soon, having a headache and tummy ache now. No one to confide to, so here I am.
Yes, definetely I am feeling lonely. I have to, I can't always depend on my friends or HIM or whoever shit that is =/
SO, I have decided to come up with a very brilliant plan, which I am still in the midst of deciding and planning :D I'll probably post it the next time which will be soon too yeh ?
And I now have a sudden urge to sing, unfortunately I can't. First, I'll be far too loud that I'll wake my whole family up (inc. dogs & pets ) yeh ? Secondly, I'm having a headache, I can't sing then =/ it hurts ! HELP ! save me panadols ! I didn't take any =)
Third, I'm too tired, but I just want to hear myself xD Lastly, I have yet to complete my homework, I'm piled with workSHITS you know ?
haha .
sigh ....
The first 3 months of the year 2009 (this year luhh) have been quite like a roller coaster ride for me . The ups and downs, well its more downs then ups actually. No one will understand. NO ONE.
undergoing many changes in school life, after school life, at home, friends, guys (shit people) don't mind me =) girls, TEACHERS. Have landed myself into depression for a week or so. SUCKS. TOTALLY SHITTY .
Kinda overwhelming for me. Even the school work given is changing (increasing , to be specific)
All the sweet nothings have been blinding me.. Oh well.... Life's like that isn't it ?
ok then, I think that's all for now.
toodles. Things will all get better, I'm sure of it =)
lotsa love, me

2009-03-08T07:29:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOOOOO.
Someone just brightened my day today ^^ (pie)
heh .. thanks Matthias =) despite you have totally no idea what had happened or what I am going through now . But you simply just cheered me up .
*happy*
Well, I'm just plain happy now. Never had such a great feeling for such a long long time ^^
well I'm seriously happy. Thank God =)
All my depression have seem to vanish and disappear into thin air all of a sudden . Isn't that wonderful ? ^^ I'm so glad ^^
I mean, see.... I no longer have to brood over matters like whether that someone is going to care for me or not or wheher he's going to like me or whatever.
I see HOPE okay ? How wonderful ? atleast I know that there are others who care for me . And the constant reminder that there will be someone better than you . Isn't it true ? Someone that will not keep me waiting for long hours and someone who will not lie to me.
Yeh, Im probably uttering nonsense again, thinking out loud yeh ?
Joy-pills of my life, hmm =/
The most important person in my life :- me, MY VERY OWNSELF.
I need TLC .
haha .
shuddup luhh Valerie .

2009-03-08T01:09:00.000-08:00

SPARE ME FROM THIS TORMENTING SITUATION I AM IN NOW.
You're killing me .
Can't you see that my love for you is tearing me apart ? IM LOSING MYSELF !!
Too hooked up by your sweet charms, probably =/
stupidity to the maximum !
what ? to give in ? oh please ... spare me . WHAT !? hell no !
what have I done to deserve this ? You are the one at fault, affirmative!
If you don't truly love me, someone else does yeh ?
hello ?

2009-03-07T06:55:00.000-08:00

RANTING THE SHIT OUTTA ME .
FREAKING PISSED .
broken promises are driving me nuts !
I hate it yeh ?
But here, Im going to ignore and give you all the time and space you want.
That's it, that is what you want, for me to give in .
Yes, I'm a nuisance, so be it . I'm here trying to find time to be with you, waiting for hours and hours and hours just for you . AND YOU :- busy/tired/no time/its not that I don't want to, it's that I can't/try to understand. yes yes, everytime I'll be telling myself that you're just so busy and that you don't have the time to be with me . But do you know how much it hurts everytime I have to say this to myself over and over and over for so many times that tears just roll down .
Since you don't have the time, then just tell me will you ? why must you tell me and put so much hope into me but all you do in the end is to just ignore me . WHY ? you selfish bastard ! pardon me .
HOW COULD YOU ?! sigh ... i ahev so many more things i wan to let you know, so many more things I wanna share with you and yet you are doing this to me.
FINE.
here you go, Im going you give you all the time in the world, all the time that you need .
You don't understand me at all .

2009-03-06T03:41:00.000-08:00

Well, today's friday and it sucked really really awfully. CAN'T SEE YOU . YOU TAKE SO LONG TO REPLY.
IM LOSING MYSELF AND YOU.
and I hate it.
You always leave me alone, ALL ALONE.
I don't know but I guess I have been flirting with myself lately =/
Today.. In Hillgrove Secondary School, Class 4e4, level 3, in a small and dark corner of the classroom ( not exactly dark but yeh) is Valerie. Emo-ing.
She had been thinking of so many things for the past 2 weeks.
She's thinking whether if she could really trust the people around her, especially the one she really loves, but doesn't seem to know it at all.
Yeh... this is the really sad thing for her thing week.
And Valerie had a bad headache today, studied like a mad woman today for F&N.
She had no one to confide to, and no one to share her things with, therefore she has decided to post it up here.
All I need is YOU.
yes you.
You know who you are.
You just don't have the time . I think .
I think I've just found myself a new game, a new hobby.
All you have to do is to germinate your butt onto somewhere comfy or DARK/washroom/bathetub, anywhere and then daydream about him (someone you really miss) and start collecting dust and ROT.
yeh .
give it a shot.
Back to the school topic, well... had choir today. had no instructors, did sectionals. was really lousy, laughed at so many thins today, from sanitry pads to J's panties and bra, you name it you have it ! yeh . with hana and friends or course . who else =)
yeh and during choir practice, Corlissa had her fringe trimmed by Zhiyi who claims herself to be Zhi Gan, David Gan's daughter xD
yeh .. you should see the ways she cut people's hair.
WOW
haha. yeh and corlissa looked like a korean ! really ! Isn't that cool ?
haha. and had our measurements taken today, well its needed for our SYF =\
and I never stop thinking about you .. yes you, you know who you are.
Made me so sad.
sigh .. stupid me . doing all these for him but he doesn't even know it at all .
WELL, love is blind and I'm blinded by love . the love for him
yes .
well... I really hate it seriously, having to wait for him so long, yearning to be with you everyday and hoping that you'll be free sometime/someday/NOW.
But never were you . disappointed.
I attempted to ignore you, but my heart didn't seem to understand my intentions.
Well.. and of course, losing sleep just to daydream of you. But YOU.. all you do is tell me you're tired, busy, had homework, tuition.
yeh ...
suan le . immune le .
sigh ... will things change for the better ?
Do you know how hard I find it just to tell myself to stop thinking of you and to concentrate. It seems impossible and it really is .
but is it worth it ? for me to do all this ? yes ? maybe ..
I don't know . yes it is .
It's because I love you too much. probably.
sigh ... this is killing me . You are killing me . ok .
stop doing this to me .
Let me be by you .
wo ai ni

2009-03-06T03:04:00.000-08:00

Is he really that busy? Can't he even reply my messages? He has to take so long just to reply a simple message.
SIGH... sometimes this is why I don't trust you.
I'm sorry, but what you do for now just can't make me trust you?
Can you just understand? That I really love you and I just want to be with you.
I'm here trying to do everything I can just to be close to you and yet you just don't seem to get my point. You still don't understand what I want.
Sometime.. waiting for your replies can be so frustrating, thinking what you'll be doing.. who are you with? and when will you EVER be free... sigh sigh sigh......
You don't know how much I need you.
Yes, you told me to have faith in you and now I ask you to have some time to let me be with you.
I really want to be with you. But you never seem to have the time, its always either school work, extra lessons, tuition, cca.
You've lied to me. you said you would bee free after your camp but... you're not at all. Its worse !
can you atleast try to understand how I feel.
even if I were to be hanging out with a hundred or thousand friends, I can never be happy. truly happy. I just pretend to be happy.
You are more than a friend to me. I wish that you'll be the guy I first knew, the one that had the time to chat with me, help me with my work and always saying that you wanna meet me. but now.... things have changed a great deal. I became the one who's pestering you and hoping you'll have the time to meet me.
The time I spent with you seems to only be minutes and seconds. How I wish that minutes and seconds can turn to eternity. How much I long to be with you.
But despite all these, I believe that God will help me and save me from such an upsetting situation. With God, I know that things will all be better for me.

2009-03-05T03:44:00.000-08:00

Valerie's feeling so so down now. I seriously am.
Flung math test really badly and didn't even get a PASS for overall.
Such a failure, a LOSER ! You stupid idiot ! DUMB !
What is wrong with you? WHY IS THIS EVEN HAPPENING?
Now.. I see no hope in math.. I'm afraid I have to disappoint my parents again. I'm sorry daddy and mummy . Im sorry.
I'm just so useless.
sigh.. now about him.. he's so busy.. the more I think of you, the more I yearn to be right by your side. I just want to be by you all the time.
And you never seem to have the time.
I don't know what to do, I'm just so lost now.
God please help me and guide me through torment. I feel like I'm losing everything, my happiness.

2009-02-28T23:51:00.000-08:00

The rain made my day worser.
A day without you is already very torturous for me.
And yet you don't know how much I've missed you for the past few days
I'm tired of being all lonely and feeling so so down.
Solitary moments are killing me.
Please don't leave me .
You are someone I can trust.
So don't lie to me. For God's sake. please don't.
I have totally no idea why I burst into tears during Sunday afternoon.
It must be you, I guess.
ILY . I miss you so so much . And everything I do, Im constantly thinking of you.
Im so angry that you left me all alone.
And your messages annoyed me, purely meaningless messages.
Can you show a little more concern ?
I'm here, trying so hard to get your attention and yet you don't even realise it
Stop making me suffer this way .
I'm just so freaking upset and disappointed with myself now alright .
what is so fucking wrong with me. darn this .
I miss you but please don't do this to me . I love you

2009-02-28T16:33:00.000-08:00

*SIGH*
How much I yearn for you to be by my side every moment in time.
I bet you'll never.
I Love you.

2009-02-28T06:26:00.000-08:00

hello people :D
first of all LET ME REVIVE MY BLOG . here I go
don't blame me . blame common test and schoolwork . (val's enemies) yupps
sigh ...
anyway . yeh I WAS PANGSEH-ED by this pig headed PIG
and he ought to be spanked ! feel guilty pig !
ihateyou BUT I LOVE YOU ^^ and i mean it . i really do =)
don't mind me .
sigh .. walaooo go camp luhh then leave me alone .
ANYWAY its ZHU'S burpday today =) sheng ri kuai le !
May all you dreams and wishes come true! loves ! =) haha old le luhh .
well today 28th February 2009 xD
went out to meet corlissa to study =)
learnt about LZCZL xD lion zebra corn xD blah blah taught by some funny friends xD
some chemistry stuff xD
then had to rush off for piano ! darn it .. could have postponed the lesson ! AND I TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT .
NEH-MAI luhh .. hmm but Piano lesson was shitty . screwed up all three songs I'm supposed to play . felt shitty too .. =(
it happens when there is lack of practice and the cause of it . COMMON TEST . darn you common test ! you bloody *toot* * toot* *more swear words*
there ....
hmm.. i miss zhu ! really really badly =( sigh .. darn you common test ! and camp !
argh ....
and you pig ! pang seh me ...
eh . no link .
being random ......
to be continued
having mental block now . cant think

2009-01-29T07:16:00.000-08:00

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

2009-01-27T06:22:00.000-08:00

Valerie is feeling SO HAPPY right now ^^ because she managed to complete MOST of her holiday assignments xD
OH ! And thanks for helping me Fred ^^ zhu! haha .
Then I managed to complete so much homework =DDDDD
WOW . Its the second day of the 'NIU' year people !
Hmm.. had so much fun today !!! Especially in daddy's car !
HEH .. was waiting for mummy & ahmah to buy some things when my sis started poking my dad and I tried pressing the car horn xD
LOL BUT I WAS STOPPED by my dad . hmm .. then pulled out this thing where people rest their heads on in the car . MUAHAHAHAH ! was waving it outside the window ! hahahah !
omg ... terrible me >.< size="1">tiny table.
OKAY LAH . Atleast I enjoyed my meal there xD then of course did some stupid things with my sis . hmm ... placed things that are not supposed to be on the conveyer belt then ran off !!! HAHA !
OK AY LAH LAME CAN CAN ?! HMM HMM ?!
well.... also managed to wear my NEW YEAR'S CLOTHING. *happy*
sad thing is , didn't manage to get any hongbaos today *sad*
Alright then . so here I am going to end my long and childish post.
FULLSTOP.lotsa love.me

2009-01-26T06:52:00.001-08:00

OKAY OKAY. Second posting of the day =/
Posting on some doubts & questions in my HEAD.

Can I really believe in what you say ?
Can I really trust you ?
Will you lie to me ?
Or are you just no difference from them ?
Do you really care for how I feel ?
Do you mean everything that you told me ?
Is it true ?
Don't you tell them to other people too?
Or are you just being sympathetic towards me ?
Because I feel blithe just being with you . I just can't teach myself to IGNORE YOU.

2009-01-26T05:02:00.000-08:00

Helloooooooooo people =)
Its THE FIRST DAY OF THE 'NIU' YEAR ^^
hmmm exciting exciting !
Well today's SO COOL , got so many HONGBAOS ^^ whooooo!!
*peeks inside the red packet $.$* omg omg !
YAY ! Most of my relatives came to my house today to bai nian =D and of course that is how my red packets accumulated =)
Also visited my granny at Jurong then brought bubbles (my dog) along to bai nian ^^
Ate and chatted then eat more and talked non-stop xD till like 6 maybe ? well .. her house was kinda empty =/ unlike mine when i reached home . well.. SUPER CROWDED . xD little cousins running and zooming about xD shoutings + mahjongs + tele + dogs barking . OMG CAN YOU IMAGINE . really really noisy =/ noise pollution !
but it's like this every year =D
humans and bags and dogs and so many other thing seating on the sofas xD i ended up sitting on the massage chair =.="
well .. then I had dinner of course and pei my little cousins . SO CUTE ^^
then of course time to say goodbye T.T but they'll be back tmr =D
hmm .. tiring day today . and after blogging .. guess im gonna stone infront of the laptop xD
well that's all from me.FULLSTOP.lotsa love.me

2009-01-25T02:55:00.000-08:00

ITS CHINESE NEW YEAR'S EVE . hmm ... its boring . stuck at home ! collected so much dust and almost rotted ! T___T was reminded of the PAST EVENTS . *ehemm* but nevermind =/ I forgive you.
Well , for CNY EVE , stayed at home and watch inuyasha episodes =.=" and onlined almost the whole day .LOL. wanted to go gai gai de but everyone seems so busy ! >.< *arghhh*
chatted with many many people on msn ^^ and hmm... fixed my blog.
AND I SAT INFRONT OF THE LAPTOP SINCE MORNING 8.00 am .TILL NOW. *looks at the time* whoooo !
Is this cool or is this cool xD
But today will also be an unforgettable day ^^ BECAUSE I DID SOMETHING EXTRAODINARY , which is to complete my english essay writing on Dreams ON CNY EVE ! *clap clap clap*
yeh yeh ... lame ..
so that's all from me.FULLSTOP.lotsa love.me

2009-01-23T20:53:00.001-08:00

Valerie is feeling very bored now, therefore she started blogging. Seriously, why must these weird creatures of earth have to deceive people like us. Do they like doing it ? Maybe they do. But why must they do this to us ? *ponders* Why can't they just try being a little nicer to us .... okay ... I'm spouting nonsense AGAIN ...
Thats all .FULLSTOP.lotsa love. me